injections

In my last post I described testing positive for Lyme disease, or Borrelia burgdorferi. Yet with those same tests, my results for Babesia were negative. When I was tested back in 2011 for coinfections, Babesia also came up negative. However, as I continue further down the path of treatment, clear signs of Babesiosis are coming out from hiding.

According to lymedisease.org, the signs and symptoms of a Babesia infection are high fever and chills, fatigue, headache, drenching sweats, muscle aches, nausea, and vomiting. Over the last two months I’ve been working with my doctor who is like a veteran hunter in the forest – tracking Babesia like it’s his mission, as it tries to slip through the shadowy woods. Every time we meet, he monitors symptoms and adjusts antibiotic therapies according to what infection may be causing them. The one that keeps coming up is Babesia. Because my doctor understands the importance of the body as a whole, he changes treatments to take the load off of my gut or detox organs when necessary.

Since beginning antibiotics, a few symptoms which didn’t exist a few months ago are now primary symptoms. Daily chills and fevers that break during sleep. Check. Drenching night sweats. Check. Fatigue. Check. Muscle aches. Check. Nausea. Check. Vomiting. Thankfully, no, but many days I feel it’s not far away. Other than intense swelling in my right knee, it appears my body is fighting off a Babesia infection. Here in California, it’s relatively warm most days, yet I need at least four long sleeve shirts and a heater constantly just to keep warm. I go through 4-5 t-shirts each night, continuously waking up to change the one drenched with sweat from an hour earlier. Muscle aches are more intense, but fatigue is one symptom where I’ve really noticed an increase especially since treating specifically for Babesia.

So what are my treatments? Pulsing oral antibiotics. Twice a week injections of Bicillin. Mepron and Azithromycin to target the Babesia specifically. Yeah, it goes against every fiber in my body to treat with drugs when I know how much they strip the body of nutrients and how they include so many extra dyes and additives my body has to work that much harder to expel. I also tried a test of IV Rocephin to see how my body would react so that may be next.

It’s a test of faith and discipline to go this route when there are no guarantees. Right now I’m trusting God and relying on those around me for support. Thank you to all my family, friends and even those I don’t know who are praying for me. And also to those who teach me to pray. Lyme disease or any coinfection can be extremely painful. I’ve never experienced more pain and suffering in my entire life than right now. I can relate to the confusion, to those who feel like their body is weak and breaking down, not knowing whether I will be able to work anymore, not knowing whether I will be able to finish my nutrition degree, not knowing whether I will ever be strong enough to raise a family, not knowing whether there will be a tomorrow. Yet, I’m hopeful. Why? Because when I read passages like this and this it calms my fears. My hope skyrockets when I read that some day I have a special reservation where there will be no pain or suffering. It’s a mystery as to why I’m suffering now, or what God’s plan is. But I do know that my identity is not being sick, or tired all the time, or having Lyme disease. My identity is that I’ve been adopted by a God who loves and deeply cares about you and me no matter what sickness or trials we go through. And the best part is this place where there will be no suffering or pain is a free gift! I didn’t have to do anything. It’s all because of Jesus and what He did for us.

I know what it’s like to question why and how long this pain and suffering will last. If you want to know more about why I’m so sick and tired and feel like I’m on my death bed some days yet so joyful and hopeful at the same time, send me a message and I’ll explain. If you suffer from Lyme or related infections, I’d like to hear your story and pray for you as well.